I won't deny this isolation has been hard. Not being able to see my therapist or my psychiatric NP in person for our first meetings has already set me back in the diagnosis and treatment process. They can't see my mannerisms and stims, they can't read my facial expressions or tone, they can't tell when… Continue reading Losing Mobility
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Disappointed But Not Surprised
Disappointed but not surprised is definitely the mood for 2020. With everything that has happened and is currently happening, this year is shaping up to be one big 
face. Being separated from friends is my norm. Due to the complexity of chronic illness and symptom flares I often have to cancel physical plans and… Continue reading Disappointed But Not Surprised
I’m Done Explaining
I'm so tired of justifying my right to exist. I'm so tired of defending my identity, my actions, my boundaries. But if I stopped advocating for myself and my communities, who would? It's utterly exhausting trying to explain why I deserve respect and human decency. And it hurts so much when people fail to see… Continue reading I’m Done Explaining
Starving for Answers
Nine days. That doesn't seem like a very long time, just over a week. But nine days can feel like a month when each day you get out of bed only to wither away a bit more. I see a new gastroenterologist in nine days. Hopefully he will be able to provide some answers or… Continue reading Starving for Answers
Lymphedema Can Suck It!
Recently, I was diagnosed with lymphedema in my legs and since my last pain flare its been running rampant. Right now, I am going to vent about why I hate it and now hate yet another part of my body. In my case, lymphedema cause my lymphatic system to be unable to properly filter lymph… Continue reading Lymphedema Can Suck It!
Think Zebra
I'll admit this winter has been hard on me. From the beginning of the new year I have been in a huge pain flare and depressive episode. My motivation was drained. I was constantly exhausted, taking 2 or more naps a day. For a brief moment I lost hope. Hope that I would graduate. Hope… Continue reading Think Zebra
Being disabled isn’t ‘Brave’, its my reality.
Because I've seen a lot of it lately in my news feed and am getting fed up with all the comments under each video, I am going on a little rant about "Inspo-Porn". Inspiration porn is when disabled people are portrayed as 'inspirational' or 'extraordinary' due solely to the fact that they live life with… Continue reading Being disabled isn’t ‘Brave’, its my reality.
Rare Disease Day 2019
Today is Rare Disease Day. There are over 6,000 diseases and disorders that are considered rare. Meaning in Europe, it affects fewer than 1 in 2,000 people, and in the United States, fewer than 200,000 people are affected. While these diseases and disorders are rare, being affected by one isn't. In fact 1 in 20… Continue reading Rare Disease Day 2019
The Trifecta
Early this morning I meet with a new neurologist, one that I have been wanting to see for a while. When he accepted my case and I booked my appoinment I felt like I was going to finally get somewhere. This is because he sees and treats comlpex disorders/cases. He would be able to work… Continue reading The Trifecta
Peace and The New Year
Lets just scratch out January and pretend February is the first month of the year, OK? This year I am trying out a word of the year. My word is PEACE. Peace of mind. Peace of body. Peace of heart. I am using The Mighty's 52 Small Things plan of achieving one small goal or… Continue reading Peace and The New Year
