Chronic Illness, Coping, Life Posts, Mental Health

Find Me in the Ashes

I am forever grateful that I now have a central line. But my stomach still drops when hearing the words 'blood draw'. And while I look calm and collected, I am fending off a full scale panic attack as the nurses try again and again to get an IV started. Now, I have been poked… Continue reading Find Me in the Ashes

Chronic Illness, Life Posts

Percy the PICC Line

So, today I got my 8th? PICC line placed (peripherally inserted central catheter). They had to make a second incision because it wouldn't thread in the first spot. Basically they told me my veins narrow in certain places they shouldn't and that overall they are tiny baby veins. My luck. They tried threading the guide… Continue reading Percy the PICC Line

LGBT, Life Posts, Mental Health

Love, Me

So, because it is National Coming Out Day I decided to finally watch the movie Love, Simon. I'll be honest with you, I had to pause the movie 3/4 of the way through. From the scene where Simon was outed on, I could not stop crying. I was sobbing. Now I know that Simon was… Continue reading Love, Me

Chronic Illness, Coping, Mental Health

The Major Losses Of Living With Chronic Illness

Living with chronic illness suck butts. There I said it. It's hard, hurts, and is generally hell. In this post I will describe some losses and thing spoonies will tend to grieve as a way for friends and family to get some insight into what we have to experience in our journey. And for us… Continue reading The Major Losses Of Living With Chronic Illness

Chronic Illness, Life Posts, Mental Health

A Decisive Return

It has been a while, I know. A lot has happened in these past few months and we will eventually get to that; but first I want to give a brief explanation as to why I took a hiatus longer than I had expected too. I needed to recover. And I wasn't healing like I… Continue reading A Decisive Return

Chronic Illness, Coping

A Necessity In A Life With Chronic Illness

Because we met online in NO way invalidates our friendship. Please, spare me the speech on how there are "middle aged men posing as teenagers" out there trying to exploit young girls. I'm a big girl now, I can judge and rationalize and determine the difference between a spam account and a farm girl from… Continue reading A Necessity In A Life With Chronic Illness