TW: legal kidnapping
CW: themes of child abuse, separation, divorce
Happy 10yr anniversary to the day I came home to a house that looked like it had been ransacked and robbed. Happy 10yr anniversary to my immediate thought being “Oh, Mom left.” Happy 10yr anniversary to being legally kidnapped from my dad using a falsified order of protection. Happy 10yr anniversary to the start of being manipulated and coerced into picking sides for the next 7yrs.
I don’t have contact with you anymore, for good reason. And I’ve only just begun to heal from your meticulous (but poorly executed) plan to move us out of our childhood home. Your choice to submit a falsified order of protection, essentially barring our own father from even picking us up from school, gave me severe separation anxiety. Every time he leaves I fear he won’t come back. When he’s a bit late coming home and doesn’t text so, my body goes into fight or flight. I run through all the scenarios in my head, unwillingly repeating the most gruesome. 10yrs later and I am still suffering the consequences of what you did. I understand you needed to leave, to get out. But there were much more civil ways you could have gone about it. Absolutely nothing warranted the malice in the way you went about leaving. All you did was traumatize your children and hurt their family. But I guess that may have been the point.
The Chronic Typist 