Chronic Illness, Coping, Life Posts

Starving for Answers

Nine days. That doesn't seem like a very long time, just over a week. But nine days can feel like a month when each day you get out of bed only to wither away a bit more. I see a new gastroenterologist in nine days. Hopefully he will be able to provide some answers or… Continue reading Starving for Answers

Chronic Illness, Life Posts, Mental Health

Think Zebra

I'll admit this winter has been hard on me. From the beginning of the new year I have been in a huge pain flare and depressive episode. My motivation was drained. I was constantly exhausted, taking 2 or more naps a day. For a brief moment I lost hope. Hope that I would graduate. Hope… Continue reading Think Zebra

Chronic Illness, Coping, Life Posts

The Trifecta

Early this morning I meet with a new neurologist, one that I have been wanting to see for a while. When he accepted my case and I booked my appoinment I felt like I was going to finally get somewhere. This is because he sees and treats comlpex disorders/cases. He would be able to work… Continue reading The Trifecta

Life Posts, Mental Health

Peace and The New Year

Lets just scratch out January and pretend February is the first month of the year, OK? This year I am trying out a word of the year. My word is PEACE. Peace of mind. Peace of body. Peace of heart. I am using The Mighty's 52 Small Things plan of achieving one small goal or… Continue reading Peace and The New Year

Chronic Illness, Coping, Life Posts, Mental Health

Find Me in the Ashes

I am forever grateful that I now have a central line. But my stomach still drops when hearing the words 'blood draw'. And while I look calm and collected, I am fending off a full scale panic attack as the nurses try again and again to get an IV started. Now, I have been poked… Continue reading Find Me in the Ashes

Chronic Illness, Life Posts

Percy the PICC Line

So, today I got my 8th? PICC line placed (peripherally inserted central catheter). They had to make a second incision because it wouldn't thread in the first spot. Basically they told me my veins narrow in certain places they shouldn't and that overall they are tiny baby veins. My luck. They tried threading the guide… Continue reading Percy the PICC Line